I don't know why, but I can barely stand this position I'm in. I can't fix this situation and am forced to depend on others. It feels so humiliating. Like I'm less of a man almost. I feel as though I'm on the edge and about to snap.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
I've been in this place of vulnerability for the last week or so and its driving me crazy. I can't stand it when i don't have control. This is the sixth day my car isn't working. I've spent 3 days working on it, but still can't find out what's wrong with it. I've had to catch a ride with a coworker 2 days this week. My neighbor and roommate have been helping me but still no luck. I've been pretty sick for over a week now, but I don't have insurance and the insurance free clinics have horrible hours so I can't get in.